The thought of bariatric surgery has been rattling around in my head since October 2019, when I had an acute arthritis explosion on my right knee. Couldn’t bear weight for days. Missed work, got xrayed and that was my introduction to arthritis with bone spurs. All because I went for a walk for exercise. Back to present- I had the gastric sleeve on November 3, 2021. The arthritis showed up on my spine and hips. Dr said it’s likely all over my various joints. I agree. I’m only 49. WT actual F? I know intellectually that younger people can have arthritis, but I never imagined I would be one. So when the pain got dang near unbearable, I decided surgery would be the next logical step. Arthritis meds weren’t enough, and carrying around 260 pounds wasn’t helping. Dieting didn’t work. For various reasons. My love of food and overeating this beloved food being mainest. So right now is day 9 post surgery. I’m not having much pain. Haven’t needed a pain pill in 2 days. But holy cow do I miss eating. I’m still on the 2 week post surgery full liquid diet. I’m not reaching my water goals. I’m probably not reaching my protein goals. The garbage protein water and protein shakes are just about unbearable at this point. Artificial sweeteners are gaggy. I hopefully get to progress to a purée diet after the 2 week check up on the 18th. Honestly I already freaking cheated. I chewed up a few bits of hamburger last night and a couple of small bits of a cookie. What does that say about my commitment to this journey? I feel super guilty. I spent a small fortune and time off work with no pay for this chance to be healthier and I’m not following the rules to a T. Today is not better. I cheated again. Ate a bit of bacon. And a chip of cookie. I wanted to have a small bit of a pork chop at supper tonight, and I didn’t. So there’s that tiny victory. It’s not that I feel like I’m starving, I don’t think. It’s just that the post surgical food choices are garbage. What a bullshit bunch of whining. First world problems at its whiniest finest. Gah. I get on my own last nerve.